well de song says it all..doesnt it...mayb..i've wondered why having a crush could be so wonderful....i've felt it before...not once...but still at the end..i never really understood how hangin on to someth could be so meaningful...true dat mayb i have never ever been in a relationship before in my life..."something that never started can ever end"...so cant xpect me to understand it...loving someone was never a problem for me at all...but forgettin dem proved to be a burden...as i carry on de pain i feel...i asked myself...'is this worth it?'...i'd wanted to say no...but heart says it is...why?...i swear i'll never knw...de moment u fall into dis thing u call love...everything seems better...all's nice ard u...n yet its such a burden to keep it to urself....everytime she smiles...and evertime she cries...u wish u could be there for her...u wish u could comfort her...u wish u'd be the one for her...n yet u cant...de moment the truth sinks in ur heart just wrecks up...u reach a point of emotional breakdown...felt it once...den it dawned upon me...dat she's not worth it...dat i'd still have to carry on...so i did...i hated love from dat very moment..."the love of hate is the hate of love"...i lost faith in it for sometime...well a long time....i looked ard...ppl...no couples everywer...wat dey felt...i couldnt comprehend...i cant accept it...why..of all things...love...its such a pile of....it affected me quite badly...i wont deny dat...."scars don't heal themselves,it never will"...it still hasnt...but it can be hidden...or shown if u are willin to believe in it oce more....as for me...having a crush wasnt the best experience of my life...but i'm startin to believe in it...again...mayb im naive...ignorant...foolish...but i finally understood it i guess....dat lovin someone doesnt have to be about being together....its about makin her smile...n don't ever hurt her...never ignore her...n she'll appreciate it....its all about understanding one another...dats wat ever reall mattered in the end.....
after all this..if u're wonderin if i have a crush...i wont say...mayb later in life i'll find someone...and i'll be content as long as she smiles...as least i did something right in life.....